Ever since I can remember I have always had very vivid dreams, and not only do I have these vivid dreams, but I always remember them with perfect clarity, I never have to sit and try to remember what I dreamed the night before I just know. I have these dreams, but I've never felt like they were anything special, I don't feel like they are premonitions or warnings, or anything special really, just my tired brain unwinding for the night. Last night I had a dream that I was going camping with Courtney and my mom, we were at my house packing and getting ready to go when the doorbell rang, Courtney looks at me and says "I wonder who that could be" as soon as she says that the doorbell begins to ring multiple times, just like the way my Grandpa used to ring when he came over. Immediately I just know that it's him, because who else would come ring your door in such an obnoxious way? He comes inside and asks what we are doing and when I tell him we are going camping, and he chimes in with all this information about where we are going and the best way to get there. My Grandpa just knew stuff about places and things and whenever you started talking about something he always had something to say,and it wasn't just bull shit he was pulling out of his ass, he genuinely knew a lot of things. So back to the dream. He asks why I'm packing something that he doesn't think I need to take and then calls me an "odd duck" which is what he would call me all the time when he was alive. When he turned to leave I got up and gave him a hug and said "love you grandpa" he said "you too" and I woke up.
When I got out of bed I didn't even think anything about the dream, I didn't think it was odd and I didn't think about the fact that my Grandpa is gone, it wasn't until my mom got home from work and I was telling her my dream that I really thought about it, and I was sad, It's still fresh to me I still can't believe that I'm not ever going to see him again and that I'm never going to hear him tell me that I need to be nice to my sister, that I won't leave and say I love you with a 20% chance of hearing it back. My Grandpa was a gruff grumpy old man, he made mistakes in his life, but I believe that as he got older he tried to make up for the mistakes that he made with his children with his grandchildren. I don't know what to make of that dream I don't know if that was him saying hi or it was just me thinking about him. It was 5 months 2 days ago that he passed away, and I miss and love him.
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