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So I never ever follow through on things like this and surprise surprise blogging hasn't been any different! Well tonight I have some time before Courtney gets here so I figured I would log on and do some writing. My Mom has abandoned me for thanksgiving  but it's ok, because I still have family to celebrate with. Even if we have our issues sometimes I still love them and I'm excited for yummy food and a good day, then I'm going out to my second family (Courtney's) and going to have even more wonderful food and company I can't wait!
  So I know that in blogs pas tI have mentioned my ex best friend Cory, well I have finally reached a point in my life where I am no longer angry or even hurt by  his actions, about 2 weeks ago I sent him a text asking if he would be willing to try one more time to be friends, because even though to everyone else he looks like an ass he was my best friend, but I didn't hear back, I'm pretty good at pushing people away, I completely understand why he's finally had enough of me and my anger. It still hurts though.
  So since this blog is just me rambling, another thing that I was going to touch on was the GLBT teen suicides and the hate that I see in this country, but I think I'll save that. I feel like we are constantly talking about all the bad in the world, and don't get me wrong I still see it and want to fix it, but there is also good in this world and not just big things, but simple things like waking up to a freshly shoveled driveway after the big blizzard, or my family checking on me just because they know my mom is out of town. I try to be good, and to help those in need, I'm sure I don't do as much as I could, and that is something I would like to improve on.
 I know this is the most poorly put together blog, but I really just need a place to put down some thoughts every once in a while, and this is what comes out. I promise I'm not quite this scatterbrained in my everyday life. Well since I'm finishing this up like a week after I started, and I have shit to do I'm going to wrap this random blog up, I'm off to put nails in my wall, but shh don't tell my mom!!!